Tonight is just a night filled with random thoughts. There are many things going through my mind - and I'm not sure where this will take me.
Over the last 3 weekends we have been doing a major spring cleaning. You know, one of those where you move everything, take stuff down, clear things out and put it all back together again. Mike and I decided to spread it out so it was not so overwhelming - and it has been easier to have someone help with the process. One more weekend to go on the schedule and the house will be spic and span.
Why are we doing this? One reason is the house just needs it. Over the last 2 years, both boys have moved out, we have remodeled and painted the bedrooms, converted one to an office, remodeled the bathroom, painted the hallway's and bought new furniture (yes, this is what happens when you have an empty nest!). So, while the house has been updated, it also needed a good cleaning and that we have done! The other reason is that I am hosting a wedding shower for both girls - and of course, I want to make a good impression on the mothers of the brides. A little vain? A little insecure? Maybe a little of both.
The weather has been beautiful - and for the first day of spring, we could not have asked for better. After cleaning yesterday, we took today easy. We returned things that needed returning, looked at furniture, shopped, went out to eat and lastly - spent some very, very relaxing time on the back deck listening to the birds sing as the sun went down.
Mike and I are learning how to let go - although, when we see things that "we could do better or help with" we still have a hard time letting the kids learn it for themselves. I guess that is part of being a parent. Also coming with that territory is learning that the kids now have other lives and they don't always remember to stop in and say hello. I have faith - they will remember.
Work is work. There is so much that I want to do. Now that I know the direction I should take - I want it NOW - not in a few weeks, months or years, but NOW! I know that I will get there - just have to learn patience and wait for the right time.
Friends - what can I say. I have an amazing support group at work and away. I have a close friend who, no matter what is going on in my life or hers, is there for the other. I have friends I have known for 30 plus years and when I talk to them - if it has been 1 day, 1 week or 1 year since we last spoke - it feels as if it was just moments ago. I have friends who live in other cities - but I count them as dear friends and wouldn't do without them
Faith - it is there. I believe fully in God and His Son as our Saviour. Do I attend church - not so much. I am one of the "CEO's" - Christmas and Easter Only - kind of folks. I know I am missing the teachings, but I am disillusioned at the church I call home. I follow other preachers and what they are teaching, but I miss the morning times on Sunday. One day - I will find that home again - but until then, I study the Bible, read devotions and follow the preachers that I know and respect. One thing is certain, God has surrounded both my husband and I with Godly people, and we treasure each and everyone of them - and pray for them consistently.
Young friends - those kids who are friends of the boys who have grown up themselves. What would I do without you? You keep me young, you give me strength and most of all, you have chosen to allow me into your lives. Thank you for that - it means a lot to me.
As I said - this is bunch of random thoughts - but now that I reread it, I find it is about being thankful. Thankful for those in my life - young, old, here or there. Thankful for a husband who knows that I need his strength and direction and above all, thankful for a God who loves me - no matter what I do or how I feel.
Love, forever and a day......
