Touch Me In My Dreams

Dreams....

What they can do -
Arouse, tempt, encourage

I dream of your breath - warm and seductive
Of your hand - gentle and urgent
Of caresses that imply so much more
Of desire that need to be satisfied
Of wants that long to be filled

I dream of things that make me long for more
I dream of what could be
I dream of you
I dream of me
I dream

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A Different Path

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you did things differently?  Chose a different path, made a different decision?

It seems that I have been doing a lot of that lately.  Wondering what if.  This is my time of exploration - of seeing what is available to me in many different avenues.

June 2012

I am fortunate to have dear friends who have encouraged, been there to listen to my fears, pushed me to explore boundaries that I thought were unavailable. 

Does this mean that I have changed my overall outlook?  No, I don't think so.  I think I am just adding to my personality, looking forward in life and how I can be better.  I am overall still me - and I think this exploration will just enhance that.

A friend once told me that life is like a line in the sand - if you don't like where it is, erase it and start over again.  It is not always well defined and doesn't have to be defining.  You can find life and living in many areas - some in this circle, some in that circle and some in both circles.

Words of wisdom - and I am taking it to heart.  We should all take it to heart - not to let ourselves become so defined by what others think of us and what we think we should be.  Don't be afraid to explore, experience life, take a chance. 

Travel - Both Physical and Mental

A trip was taken,

Friends were met,

Relationships were deepened....


Yes, I took a trip this past weekend.  A trip just for me.  No husband, no kids, no dogs - just me.
I met people that I have developed a relationship/friendship with over several years - from work, from Facebook, from life.

I have found I like travelling.  I did many things - from visiting the Sears (now Willis) Tower, to viewing the Els, to travelling to another state from the state I arrived in.

I reconnected with people I knew in a past life and connected with people I have much in common with.

I plan to do more of this - not sure when or where - but I will do more.

And on top of that - I have found I have much to value.  People - both near and far - have made me realize that.  I have made some decisions - to enjoy what life brings and gives me.  I realize that I have a lot to offer to others and others to me.

To my friend in New London - your family is awesome.  They welcomed me with open arms and I felt very included in all.

To my Lake Geneva friend - what can I say by "yeah" - and "fifty".  We found we have so much in common and much to explore.  This will be something for us to discuss in more detail.

To my Racine friend - what a wonderful family you have

and

To my Lincolnshire friend - you are a special Princess - always have been, always will be.

This is a continuation of my exploration - discovering me and letting the invincible summer come forward.

Decisions have been made - actions are being taken - and I am taking it a step at a time.

To those of you who mean so much to me - I can't say anything else - but you do mean so much in so many ways and I look forward to travelling that path with you.

Love,
Forever and a day...

Exploring the Essence of Me

A friend asked me the other day why I had stopped blogging.  To be honest, I just had not felt the tug lately to write here - but I have written plenty and stored those thoughts in other places.

Catching up now - I realize that this is just as much a part of me as the other areas.

I have written in a journal, I have written a short story, I have captured words in my heart and mind and soul.

I wrote earlier about an invincible summer that I felt was coming.  I'm not sure where that is at the moment - although the feeling, though somewhat diminished, is still there.  I have come to realize that I have some very dear friends.  Friends who have let me have meltdowns, who have helped me understand myself, who accept me for me and who have encouraged me to explore that essence of me.

I have learned to not sit back and accept what is handed to me, I am learning to take control of my life.  I am exploring through friends, many different things.  I go out more often, I have painted a few things, I am learning that I like a variety of music and I realize that I like to write.

This summer should prove most interesting for me.  I am taking several trips by myself - to meet people, to reconnect with friends and to explore.  I will be going to the theatre, attending a wedding and attending a wine tasting.

Writing and exploring - all a part of a journey I am on. 
I will continue to write and more importantly,
I will explore and find out more about me.

Love,
Forever and a day