In the Midst of Winter, I Found There Was An Invincible Summer in Me

Winter -

Not just a season, but a feeling.

I feel as if I am coming out of a long winter.  One that has lasted for almost a year.  It has been a year of many changes - some good, some very good and some that are heart breaking.

Where to begin?

 

Both sons married.  One is thoroughly happy and has found his soul mate.  They have bought a house and are starting their family.  The other son, I'm not sure if he is happy or not.  He and his wife have cut us out of their life - so we don't know what is going on with them.

My husband - who has been my rock - has had an incredible amount of pressure put on him.  He now works more hours than ever before.  He leaves for work by 6:00 in the morning - returns around 8:00 at night (sometimes later, seldom earlier) and this doesn't include the Saturday hours.

Me - I have a new job.  While I love what I do, as usual, I am unsure of myself.  Friends say I am doing great.  Me, I don't quite believe that.

I do know that through friends, I am starting to believe that I deserve more in my life - and I'm trying to embrace that, see what I can become.

Yes, I'm starting to feel like summer is coming.  The spring thaw is happening, but it has been a long winter, so it won't happen overnight - but an invincible summer is coming.