Life... Unexpected

I met a woman the other day. She was full of laughter and unafraid to take chances. She saw the beauty and joy in life and loved all that she did. She was funny and brave She says that life needed to be lived and that everyone should do something wild and unexpected. She encouraged me to seek that which was the very being of me.


It is amazing what a few weeks can do.  I started doing the things she suggested.  It opened my eyes and my world.  I was becoming braver and more sure of myself.


Then

Life

Happened



Along the way, I let the past intrude and undo all that I was becoming.  Someone who I love decided to tease me.  And in that teasing, brought back all of the fears I had been working so hard to overcome.  I was told it was teasing and that I shouldn't worry about it - but what that person did not realize is that in teasing, there is always some truth.

Yes - the woman I met was the woman I was becoming and in a matter of seconds I have become the woman I was - unsure, afraid, certainly not brave.  The walls have returned - insecurity is back.  Where do I go from here?  How do I find the woman that I was becoming?  How do I take down the walls?

Life.
Unexpected.
Confining.
Walls.

Love,
Forever and A Day