Dancing On The Roller Coaster

It's a dance.  .

It's a roller coaster.  

It is a dance on the roller coaster.

The dance began almost a year ago.  The roller coaster ride began shortly after.  I thought it was you, but I think it is more me.  I don't know what to do, what came over me, how to act or more importantly - react.

I have grown, cowered, explored and worried.  I found out more about myself and at the same time even less about myself.

Yes a study in contradictions.  How can you dance without a partner?  How can you ride a roller coaster alone?  You do it by yourself and find you have missed much in life but find that you have also grown.

I want you, I need you, but do you want me, do you need me?  It doesn't seem so.

Where do I go from here?

More rides?

More dances?

Can I ride the roller coaster and still dance?
I don't think I can do the ride any longer or dance alone...